Oh
ja, i will also do a little piece about change – which is a topic
that was brought up and is here for us to share on within the weekly
points to blog/vlog about – and it is funny, cause in doing that, i
am walking and living a little point of change. Let me explain.
When
i first read the email with the topic i thought „Oh, cool topic,
maybe i will do a blog about it – i should do a blog about it“ -
yet i had something else to do at this point, like prepare and leave
for work – so my thought and the good intent with it was suppressed
and never realized lived. Also when i first looked at it, i was
intending or thinking about writing about the „dramatic and drastic
changes“ that can come up and be there to face within ones life,
where one has built up a point to such an extent through acceptance,
allowance and participation that it is here for one to face,
inevitable as consequence.
For instance allowing and accumulating
backchat in a relationship or negative reactions towards ones work,
that one build up, till it becomes a breaking point and one and so
ones life „has to change“, (sometimes) in a traumatic way. So
this is actually a forced change where self is forcing self through
self-separation and self-dishonesty to eventually „change“ … or
repeat the pattern until one change. It´s a way of change...yet not
suggested. (note to self.)
So
what i am doing here, is writing this little blog piece is „changing
my perception“ of how and what a blog must be, that „i must know
beforehand what i will write“ and „it must sound good and
perfect“ - to something where i go with the flow, with what is here
and change my perception and action in alignment with what i see is
best IN THIS MOMENT.
No procrastination. Here, in this moment i act
and live a point i see can contribute to me, my life and so others as
well.
Another
perception i am changing within this is that „Writing a
blog/something concise and supportive must take loooong and is a lot
of effort“. No – i am writing like 11 min now and i enjoy it,
it´s easy.
I
forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see,
realize and understand that opportunities for change come
„unexpectedly“ and can not be „forseen“ or „pre-mediated“.
I
forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see and
realize that i can not „plan“ or „project“ my change as this
is me participating in the mind, thinking about a illusionary future
of „who i will/should be and how i will/should act“ instead of
living the moment as self in equality and oneness with what is here
and presents itself.
I
forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to embrace
unforeseen opportunities of change – instead of seeing and realizing
that this is the essence of my process – i can not see/premeditate
the opportunities/moments of change as that would be „mind“, i
can only prepare myself TO CHANGE (with writing, SF,
Self-commitments) and then actually DO IT and LIVE IT, when IT IS
HERE.
I
forgive myself that i have not accepted and allowed myself to see,
realize and understand that i will test my self and my change/s in
many unforeseen moments to see, show and prove to myself that i
ACTually change.
I
commit myself to realize that i create my own change and
opportunities to change.
I
commit myself to see, realize and understand that all projections,
ideas, thoughts „about change“ „in the future“ are irrelevant
and self-deception.
I
commit myself to embrace opportunities of change/to change a point or
pattern within myself/my behaviour – when that opportunity opens up
– and to ACT on that opportunity in real time when it is here as
me.
I
commit myself to snap myself out of it, when i see that i am
projecting, imaging, fantasizing about change within my mind – i
breathe and walk potential moments of change here in the physical
into a eventual realization of change.
Nice,
i am satisfied - this is a document of living my process of change.
(Inspired
by Carlton Tedford´s: Day
810: Let’s Talk Change (The Ongoing))
